Today’s my Oprah-versary! If you don’t get down with Lady O
you might want to tap out right now because this post is all about my experience
on Lifeclass one year ago.
Remember how I wrote an entry about going to see Oprah’sLifeclass then I fell off the blogosphere? It is because I couldn’t find the
words to express what the experience was like.
Since I was a little girl Oprah was my person. Not an idol
or role model, she was my person. That person who I thought truly got me and
embodied the values, dreams and passions that fed my soul. Yes I had passion
and an interest in my soul at an early age. Don’t believe me? Ask my momma.
I never had the guts to even attempt to be on her show. I
would sit back and watch all the Favorite Things episodes and the Live Your
Best Life shows from my couch wishing I was there to witness and participate in
the work that was being done there.
I call it work because lives were changed
on that show. People worked through their issues in front of millions in hope
of moving forward and getting through the emotional mental and sometimes
physical gunk of life. I’ve been working on me so hard and for so long I think
I deserve a W-2!
I didn’t think I was worthy. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t
that I thought I wasn’t worthy to be in her presence, it was more like, “Why
me? I’m not that special. My story isn’t that interesting.” So I sat back for
25 seasons and never sent one letter or email to get on the show (until the
final season when all I wanted was a ticket to the grand finale.)
Over the last 15 years, life has been indescribable. Not all
bad, but the struggle was REAL. Failed relationships (romantic, platonic,
professional and family,) financial issues, health issues and insecurities
played a major role in my inability to live my best life.
On the flip side, my
career was taking off, I bought a home, I had a wonderful circle of friends and
the most important person in my life, my mother was always a phone call away.
Things were back and forth, up and down all over the place and bittersweet.
It took a while but I
finally got on the path to feeling “worthy.” I began to travel, I went on trips
and vacations with loved ones. I cultivated meaningful and healthy relationships. But while everything seemed to be all good on
the outside, I was hiding a HUGE secret. I was miserable. I was depressed. I
was pissed off because I finally knew my worth yet I wasn’t living a life that
was worthy of me! I know it sounds confusing, but it’s my truth.
I was so afraid of confessing my feelings because I didn’t
think anyone would get it. My job is to be funny and upbeat 5 hours a day 5
days a week. Being a Debbie Downer was not an option so I put on my happy mask
and cracked jokes. I ignored the aches of my heart and soldiered on with my day
Dewaynia getting the coveted tickets!
Fast forward to March 2012. Oprah’s Lifeclass went on tour
and I scored tickets with my sister-friend Dewaynia. You can read all about
that here. When I learned about the topic “Living your life on purpose,” I was
beyond excited. I knew something was off and I knew something was missing but I
didn’t know how to express it or pursue it.
I want to go through and give you all a play by play of the
trip, the outfit and the entire show but I know y’all have stuff to do so I’m
going to get to the good.
Like my outfit?
The show was 2 hours long and for 90 minutes various people
stood up and spoke on how they found the courage to let go of their pasts to
pursue their dreams. I started to feel a certain kind of way.
Why was it so easy for everyone else to pop up and tell
Oprah about how they quit their jobs, let go of fear to find their purpose.
Sorry I got bills, I don’t have a financial back up plan. I wanted to know how
to get my happy!
So during a commercial break I looked at my friend Dewaynia
and I said, “I’m not feeling this. I am not getting the answers I need.” It
wasn’t that TD Jakes and the other guests weren’t effective, it was just that I
needed some specifics. So while Oprah sat on stage getting her hair and makeup
retouched, I stood up and said “I have a question!”
What the what? Why did I do that? What if I ticked off Oprah
by yelling at her? I was frozen with fear and hope and the same time. As soon
as the words escaped my lips, Oprah replied “You in the pretty yellow dress, we
will come to you after commercial.”
Huh? That’s all it took? I’ve been waiting 25 years to talk
to you and now I’m about to be on TV after standing up during commercial break?
Me? One in a thousand? Lifeclass got
real. A guy with a microphone came my way, a stage hand made me step up on a
wooden box (I’m kinda short) and I stood there waiting for my moment. Then this
Audience Q&A: How Do You Find the Courage to Follow Your Purpose?
During a live taping in St. Louis, an audience member asks how to push past fear to find your purpose. Find out why Bishop T.D. Jakes says baby steps and resisting your fear will help you live the life you've dreamed about.
Did y’all just see that? Me talking to Oprah and TD Jakes?
Crying on national television and telling the world that I needed more and that
I was afraid? I’ve had people ask me why I was crying and if it was because I
was talking to Oprah. No, that wasn’t it. I cried when I met her at Sweetie Pie’s
the day before.
These were tears of relief and hope. I wanted to share my
secret and I wanted help! Just like Ricky Bobby said. “Help me Oprah Wini-frey!” Side note, if you haven't seen this video PLEASE watch Dewaynia's retelling of "The Day We Met Oprah"
I asked that question and I zoned out. I heard their replies
but I wasn’t really capable of processing the words. I had just confessed on
national television that I was afraid to pursue my dreams and my heart’s
desire. Deidre “I got this” James unedited and on Front Street.
I haven’t watched this clip in its entirety until today. The
truth hurts! What is wrong with me and why can’t I ask for what I want? The one thing I took from that moment was
Rev. T.D. Jakes saying “Resist your fear and your faith will get bigger. You
either resist your fear or give up your destiny.”
So here we are, one year later. Did I do it? Did I resist my
fears? YES I DID!
See, I learned your purpose isn’t always your paycheck. I
was conflicted because I loved my job but something was missing. Who am I
kidding, it wasn’t something, I knew exactly what it was! So I applied for a volunteer position with an
organization that made my heart sing. I was accepted into their program and for
the next 6 months I lived a life that brought me so much joy and purpose that if
I never do anything else, I would be ok because I made so many connections and
I made a difference in my community.
Yes I’m funny, but honey, don’t think I
can’t run the world. I put it down and I was successful. I didn’t do it alone,
my friends and family helped tremendously and I would not have made it through
that time without them.
It was scary and I took many risks and I loved every second
of it. It was something I did for me. It had nothing to do with my career, my
friends or anything else. I took a chance and it paid off big time. Those super close to me know the details of
my journey and that’s how it should be. I resisted my fear and my faith carried
me through one of the most trying and rewarding times of my life.
Now don’t think that I’m done. Nope, I’m not even close. I’m
not done fighting those fears. When something or someone is important to you,
you have to face your fears and deal with it. Maybe you’re afraid to pursue a
hobby like dancing, or maybe you’re afraid to tell someone you love them.
Whatever it is, resist that fear! It is a prison and I refuse to live that
So thank you Oprah, TD Jakes and especially Dewaynia. I’m
done with fear and I will live in my truth as often as I can for as long as I
can. I’m fearless. I’m a fighter and I have faith and that makes me
unstoppable. When I forget it that I am
all those things, I have an awesome circle of loved ones who remind me that I
got this! We all have it in us, and we are WORTHY. Don’t waste any time
thinking you’re not.
Y'all... You know it's serious when I start with a "y'all." OK, something so major, so epic, so monumental, is happening in less than 30 days and I am about to burst with excitement and joy.
No, I'm not getting married, I'm not moving, but I will fulfill a dream that has been 25 years in the making.
I'm going to see OPRAH!!!!!!!
Her legendary talk show came to an end nearly a year ago and I thought I had missed my opportunity to see Lady O do her thing in front of a live audience. As promised, she hasn't gone away, but she's started a new chapter on her OWN Network.
On March 26, she's filming an episode of her powerful series Lifeclass at the Peabody Opera House in St. Louis with Rev. T.D. Jakes, and I will be in the audience!
Season one of Lifeclass blew my mind. Each night, Oprah revisited the most unforgettable topics from the Oprah Winfrey Show and how those stories, and guests can serve as teachable moments to help you live your best life.
Last week it was announced that season 2 was in the works and Oprah was taking the show on the road.Tickets were given away at random via an online lottery process and my dear friend and Lifeclassmate, Dewaynia scored a pair! I can't think of anyone I'd rather go with. We have spent countless hours in my room, with notebooks and Kleenex consuming the life lessons and applying them to our personal goals. Now we get a chance to see Professor Oprah in person and together.
So now we play the waiting game. Tickets have been booked, hotel is set. I think Dewaynia has her outfit selected! I will keep you updated as we receive more details, but for now I hope you will set your DVRs and tune in.
I apologize for being late with my Golden Globes recap. The broadcast was pretty uneventful, no major moments, no performances, and no remarkable speeches or upsets. So let's get to the important stuff, the fashion! The good, the men, and the "what the what?' Let's do this!
My pick for best dressed goes to Eva Longoria. I love this dress because I think it is flattering on almost any shape. I adore the cap sleeves, the deep v-neckline, and the classic black dress on the red carpet. Extra credit for the neat up do and minimal jewelry.
Ahh Claire Danes, always classy and so pretty in pink! Again I am a fan of the simple classic look at an awards show. Less is more. In 30 years we will look back on this dress and it will still be considered a stunning look.
Claire picked up a Golden Globe for her role as Temple Grandin produced by HBO.
Glee's Leah Michele in a lovely pink gown. I like everything about this look except the hair. A neater do would have made the dress the focal point. Either do a bold dress with a simple do, or a bold do with a simple dress. Doing both takes away from the overall look.
Mila Kunis...nuff said. Perfect, hair, perfect dress. Perfect 10
Glee's Diana Agron
Modern Family's Sofia Vergara
Vanessa Williams (how hot is she?)
Glee's Amber Riley
Kelly Osbourne & Julia Stiles
And now the bad.....
Helena Bonham Carter
Sandra Bullock, bad hair, bad dress. It pains me to put her on this list
Anne Hathaway looks like she took a ride on a disco stick
Seal and Heidi Klum, why?
To quote the old man from Coming to America "What is that? Velvet?"
From Mad Men: January Jones and Christina Hendricks. Jones looks too severe, and Hendricks looks cartoon-ish.
And the worst dressed woman at the Golden Globes....
Now ladies (and some gents, I don't judge) get ready for some eye candy!
The hotness that is Brad Pitt
Zac Efron aka My Heart
Robert Downey Jr.
L.L. Cool J
I had to save the best for last.....
Blair Underwood aka Sir Chocolate
You know why I like Blair? He's handsome, talented, and seems to be a loyal hubby and father. Nothing hotter than a responsible man in my book!
If you actually care about the awards, check out the list winners and nominees here.
The times are a changing because I totally forgot about the American Music Awards last night. I think I was too busy recovering from the Harry Potter awesomeness. I tuned in just in time to hear Katy Perry struggle through that Firework song. Has anyone noticed her little on stage trick? No not the one where she distracts her audience from her "singing" voice with something exploding from her bra (in the past she's used confetti and whipped cream.) I'm referring to her use of "uh oh uh" as an excuse not to hold a note and crack on live TV.
Word on the street, I mean the BACKstreets (hee hee) is the best part of the show was the New Kids On The Block/Backstreet Boys medley at the end of the night. Thankfully someone posted their performance on Youtube so I was able to get my groove on during the commercial breaks at work.
I don't know why I decided to skip the awards all together (I didn't even DVR it.) Maybe because these shows have become so predictable. Bad clothes, bad singing, movie/album plugs and the night ends with Taylor Swift singing a song about a dude who done did her wrong.
No matter what I think of the awards show, I can't let a chance to review the red carpet frocks pass me by so here we go!
I loved this dress on Fergie of the Black Eyed Peas. I thought it was fun and flirty and I'm loving the blue and black from head to toe. It doesn't hurt that her body is amazing and she looks fit and healthy but still has some lovely lady lumps.
Jada Pinkett Smith looks like a goddess in her custom made Pucci dress. Her skin is flawless and the color of the dress compliments her beautiful skin tone.
I prefer Tay-Tay's straight hair and short dress over the big curly hair and poofy dresses she usually wears.
For the first time in a long time Katy Perry looks like a lady! To quote Swizz Beatz, "Nails done, hair done, everything did."
It pains me to admit it but even Miley Cyrus couldn't mess up this look. She managed to mix the sexy with classy and the old school train works with the modern look of the dress.
Christina Milian is one of the most beautiful women in the industry but she continues to wear fugly clothes! She needs a new stylist and agent because she deserves better.
This reminds me of those old curtains your Grandma would have in the living room straight from the JC Penny catalog. Mandy Moore, I know you're married to Ryan Adams, a serious indie artist and I love him and his moody melodies, but please remember your outfits don't have to match his music
Gavin did you even shower?
As crazy as this is, trust me it is an upgrade for Ke$ha
And the Bieber
Isn't he dreamy?
Well there you have it. My AMA fashion review. Who are your picks for best and worst dressed?
Not much has been going on with me since my last post. I've been focusing on getting better, watching tons of TV, and listening to new music.
My meds had me tripping big time and my dreams were ridiculous. I had one dream that had me living with Beyonce and Jay-Z and they were out of toilet paper and I was too embarrassed to tell Jigga man I needed some Charmin so I just sat on the toilet until I woke up. I know dream sharing is only interesting for the dreamer so I will just leave it at that for now.
But seriously, being sick sucked big time. My mom deserves a medal for putting up with this all week....
Thank you mom I love you the most you duck!
I'm really enjoying the new Kings of Leon album Come Around Sundown. If you're expecting this album to be a repeat of Only By Night, you need not purchase Sundown. Do yourself a favor and grab Aha Heartbreak, and Because of the Times. The latest album is a throwback to Youth and Young Manhood which features some of my favorite KOL songs, Molly's Chambers and Trani.
The highlights from Sundown include Birthday, Radioactive, Celebration, Pony Up, and The End.
I was lucky enough to see KOL live last month and the show was amazing! Here are some pics and a video from the show taken by my buddy Alicia.
I loved it when the crowd sang along to Use Somebody
Is anyone watching Project Runway? My favorite designer Michael Costello was sent home after a triumphing over a gang of bully designers who felt he wasn't worthy of being there. I loved Micheal's personality from the start, and he's truly this season's underdog. Seriously the guy is talented and charming.
For some reason, PR is letting 10 designers show at fashion week, not the top 3 as it has been in the past. Here is a sneak peek at some of Michael's designs from the finale.
Fierceness! I'm hoping that blue feathered skirt comes in a size bigger than an extra medium because I would so buy one. I'm trying to get an interview with him, so if you have any questions please send them my way.
So I have one more doctor's visit with the pulmonary specialist to make sure I'm all healed and healthy, then I'm heading to DC for Jon Stewart's Rally To Restore Sanity. I can't wait to catch up with some old friends and some of the people who lived with me during the 2008 presidential campaign, happy times!!
The other night I met up with some friends to make signs for the rally. I wasn't able to get pics of the end result but we had a blast making them, it was a two day process, but I'll be sure to grab some this weekend!
Please forgive me for not updating sooner! I promise now that I'm better I will post more.
We got a situation here in Greensboro. I don't know if it is the ever changing weather, pollen, pollution, or what but my allergies attacked me like I tried to steal something! Coughing, sneezy, itchy eyes, sore throat, I was a pure-t mess! I feel like I need to apologize to my listeners for sounding like a cross between Bea Arthur and Timbaland this morning on the air (five hour show y'all). I won't put you guys through that tomorrow, I promise.
So, I'm kinda stuck in the house tonight, sipping on tea and resting my voice. I was about to go out to Panera for chicken soup but my good friend Kerry prevented the neighbors from seeing me in my jammies, by going to get it for me, she also got the latest copy of O magazine. So tonight, it's just me, tea, soup and my O magazine. What up Oprah?
I have been trying to find reasons to smile because when I'm sick I tend to get grumpy but I am happy to say we got great news at work today. We got our ratings in radio world and our show was #1! That's great news for me and my crew and it definitely helped me grind through today's show. Other things that made me smile today included this hilarious photo spread NC native Zach Galifanakis did for Vanity Fair.
And Willow Smith finally released the video for her single "Whip My Hair." It's really different, but I gotta tell you, I love this video. Check it out below:
And if that wasn't enough Whip action for you, check out 12 yr old Chang-Chang on The Ellen Show dancing to Willow's jam.
This is a warning to all the adult performers out there. It is time to step it up, these kids are killing it! And I will drop my $1.29 on i Tunes for Willow's girl anthem before I throw it away on that foolish mess Katy Perry is signing about these days. Peacocks and skin tight jeans? Yea, I'm off that, grow up or at least be different! Ooh I better get going, it's time for my next dose of Mucinex! Good times right?
You know how I talk about having friends in my head aka FMIH? I know a lot of people heard this term on The Wendy Williams Show, but I swear I've been using it since I was 19 and saw Titanic in the theatre. On my way home sobbing in the car, belting out My Heart Will Go On, I swore up and down I'd become friends with Kate Winslet, if only in my head, hence FIMH. I know that makes me sound a little cray-cray, but that's real talk, that's how my mind works!
I'm about to introduce you to some of my other FIMH. You might know them, umm, Jimmy Fallon and Justin Timberlake? Yea, we go way back. I've been jocking JT since he had that platinum blond s-curl do' in his N*Sync days. Jimmy Fallon won me over on SNL's Weekend Updates with Tina Fey. The bond was solidified the first time Justin hosted SNL and he and Jimmy Fallon debuted the Barry Gibb Talk Show skit. H-I-larious! Me and my roommate at the time, Nahdia almost broke our DVR rewinding this skit.
Now as much as I love Barry and Robin, I must admit the latest Justin/Jimmy collaboration is pretty awesome, maybe better. Here they are performing a rather dope tribute to the history of rap.
Seriously how can you look at that and not get hype? Loves it!
So I totally dropped the ball on my fall TV preview for the week. I really wanted to guide you all through the best and worst shows of the season, but I wasn't able to give you an in depth guide to Tuesday's line-up because I was consumed with preparing to celebrate the only show that really matters to me, GLEE!!
Yep, I totally gleeked out and hosted a premiere party for Glee's 2nd season, and boy did we have a great time. Some of us had too much fun thanks to my neighbor Scarlett's homemade pear sangrias.
We started right at 7 with all kinds of yummy foods, and watching our favorite scenes from season 1. We also played charades, acting out song titles from songs performed on the show.
One Gleek dominated the competition, winning dang near every round of charades. Rebecca owned the night, won the the iTunes gift card and even sang for the crowd.
Good times right? I learned several things that night, first I'm a very lucky girl to have such great friends! To have so many people come out on a weeknight to watch TV with little ol' me, really made me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. I also realized I need to take a photography class! My shots were so off and I didn't get as many pictures as I could have because my camera kept stalling. I also learned anytime someone offers you a drink from a mason jar, you will wake up the next morning with blurred vision and hair on your chest.
I know it would be difficult to host a party like this each week but I'm sure we'll do it again soon. Now I need to get my head right for the season premiere of Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice!
I still can’t believe I got to be a part of the official HBO True Blood season finale party here in North Carolina! It was one of the most exhausting days of my life but I had so much fun with all of our listeners and True Blood fanatics.
The day started with the pre-show outside the Carolina Theatre. We had signs, karaoke, a dance off and a costume contest for tickets to the invite only event.
Special thanks to Kristen Bauer Van Straten who plays vampire and Fangtasia owner Pam, the very handsome Kevin Alejandro who plays LaFayette's boyfriend Jesus, and Todd Lowe who plays Terry Bellefleur. They showed up and participated in a Q&A with the audience. Around 8:45 we all took our seats, munched on popcorn (I drank a lot of wine) and we watched the True Blood finale on the big screen.
Thanks to Brie Reeder who did my make-up for the event, Jennifer Westmoreland who took most of these photos, and my friends at HBO and Time Warner Cable for allowing me to host the pre-show.
Are you a fan of True Blood? What were your thoughts on the finale?
For being such a big ole’ scardey cat, I sure do love some vampire themed shows. First I was obsessed with Sarah Michelle Gellar and the rest of The Scooby Gang from Buffy The Vampire Slayer.
Nothing came between me and my beloved Buffy, I mean nothing. Once the apartment complex I lived in decided to cut corners and get some bootleg cable service for the entire complex that didn’t pick up the WB. Next day my bags were packed and my lease was terminated (It was Season 3 y’all, the one with Faith!).
I enjoyed the Buffy spin-off, Angel with David Boreanaz.
And I adore the Salvatores from The Vampire Diaries on the CW.
My other bloody pleasure (eww that came out kinda gross) is True Blood. I got hooked on the HBO drama last summer. They took the dark vampy angle to another level. Within the 1st five minutes I was jumping from fear and shock, sitting on the edge of my couch terrified and intrigued by what would happen next. I completed the entire season with a mini-marathon that night, only leaving the house for more ice cream (cause that’s how I roll).
Every Sunday at 9pm I am glued to the TV waiting to see what type of danger and drama awaits the town of Bon Temps, Louisiana. Each Monday I go on the air shocked and awed asking our listeners “Can you believe what happened on True Blood last night?” I almost lost my mind when our friends at HBO and Time Warner Cable came to the station to tell us True Blood’s highest ratings came from the Greensboro, NC market. As a thank you, from HBO and Time Warner, we get to host the True Blood Season 3 finale party!
The evening will have red carpet coverage, a VIP reception, Q &A with members of the cast, then we will watch the season finale at the Carolina Theatre. It’s all going down next Sunday, September 12th.
This event is invite only, but you can win tickets by listening to Rock 92 next week, being a fan on our facebook page, or through Time Warner Cable.
This is going to be MAJOR and I am so grateful to be a part of it.
My friends keep asking me if I’m nervous about meeting the stars and my answer is always no, I’m more nervous about finding the right outfit to the party! These stars are going to look all kinds of hot and I need to be on top of my fashion game right? Word on the streets, (streets being inside the studio of the radio station) is that the dress code is casual. I was so relieved to hear that because my first thought was “Where in the heck am I going to find some fancy dress in one week?” Instead I pieced together this look. I think it is casual, and fun, with a bad girl vibe.
The Bad Girls Club on Oxygen is a guilty pleasure of mine. Basically, the producers have thrown a bunch of high maintenance, boozing, horny chicks in a house and filmed them as they hook up, and drink up each week.
This season, the girls are extra rough. Not the cutest crew of girls, and they are all pretty hot headed. The biggest fool in the house is none other than Brandi. Brandi is a bi-sexual stripper from Cali who has the hots for her roommate Lea. Brandi loves to fight, and throw things. The most random act can send her into a psychotic rage. She throws glasses, tables, even a bucket containing vomit from a hungover house guest.
For weeks I've been tossing and turning at night, trying to figure out if I've ever seen Brandi before. Did she go to school around here? Was she on another reality tv show? Where and when did our paths cross. Then it hit me. I didn't see Brandi before her stint on the Bad Girl's Club, but I think I know her long lost brother. (Where is Maury Povich when you need him?) Brandi must be the twin sister of Mr. Antoine Dodson!!!!
The resemblance is striking right? I found this picture of Brandi and did a side by side comparison of the two and you can't tell me they aren't related!
See more of the delightful Brandi below. The sweet spot comes around the 35 second mark.
Ahh Good times! The Bad Girls Club is on Tuesday nights at 9 on Oxygen. And you can run and tell that, HOMEBOY!
Umm.... So yea the new cast of Dancing With The Stars was announced
and I must say, this is a hot juicy mess. It is too close to my bed time
so I can't get into the foolishness that is this cast.
Singer and Sex God Michael Bolton
NBA star turned Actor Rick Fox
David Damn Hasselhoff
NFL Player Kurt Warner
Mike “The Situation” Sorrentino
Actress and comedienne Margret Cho
R&B singer Brandy Norwood
Bristol Palin (no comment)
Audrina Patridge from The Hills
Brady mom Florence Henderson
Baby from Dirty Dancing
aka Jennifer Grey
Every season I say I won't watch, but I get sucked in every damn time! I am no Palin fan I am not looking forward to seeing Sexy Sarah with her flag pin and updo in the audience preaching family values while Bristol does the sexy samba all glittered up grinding against her partner. I'm totally rooting for The Situation, I hope he takes that glittered disco ball trophy back to the shores of New Jersey.
Screw the Super Bowl and The World Series, I live for Award Shows. The 62 Prime Time Emmy Awards aired last night, and host Jimmy Fallon helped make it my favorite Emmy broadcast to date. Check out the hilarious opening featuring the cast of Glee
Then there's the fashion. There were some beautiful gowns, and some horrible dresses. Here are my picks for best and worst dressed.
I was disappointed that my beloved Grey's Anatomy was shut out. I also wanted Kiefer Sutherland to get some gold for his final season as ass kicker and world saver Jack Bauer on 24. Did your favorite shows get recognized?