Joy in the Morning: Beyonce and Jay-Z On The Run Tour

Sup?

So I've been threatening to come out of web-tirement for a few months now but, life kept getting in the way and we will get to that later!

I was having a really rough morning. I was work-a-cidal meaning I was dying to get home. No shade to my job, it was just difficult returning to work after spending a wonderful weekend with my loved ones plus I was sleepy and hangry. Not to mention, it's been a craptastic week in pop culture. Between shower rod sex, housewives fighting and racist team owners, I needed some good news. And at 8:10 my Lord delivered.





For real, for real, I wept. Real tears when I heard about Beyonce and Jay-Z touring together. For those of you who aren't down with the Carters, follow the ushers and they will show you to the exits to the left, to the left.

 If you know me, you know I've been waiting for this since Skippy was a puppy. This is my Super Bowl. These are my Olympics, this is the mother trucking CARTER FAMILY ON TOUR!!!

My friend/co-worker told me the news and my response was too colorful to repost (my momma reads this) but let's just say I lost every ounce of chill the I was blessed with.

 
Y'all just don't know. When the rumors started circulating, I threw some change in my Bey Bank and I am so glad I did! Tickets are on sale tomorrow for Beehive stans like myself and I am throwing all my coins at Queen Bey. And let's face it, they don't need my change, when Blue Ivy is walking around like this:

Point is, I'm over the moon and I'm ready for this concert! I've seen them separately but never together. I thought about posting the tour schedule on here but I don't need no competition when I'm placing my order. Y'all are on ya own!

Until then, just know that I am going to do whatever it takes to get to this show. If you know anyone looking for part time help, a kidney, some lady eggs, just holla at me ok? 

And to quote Nettie Harris from The Color Purple, when it comes to the On The Run Tour: 




Have a BEYutiful day!!

No Fear: My Oprahversary



Today’s my Oprah-versary! If you don’t get down with Lady O you might want to tap out right now because this post is all about my experience on Lifeclass one year ago.



Remember how I wrote an entry about going to see Oprah’sLifeclass then I fell off the blogosphere? It is because I couldn’t find the words to express what the experience was like.


Since I was a little girl Oprah was my person. Not an idol or role model, she was my person. That person who I thought truly got me and embodied the values, dreams and passions that fed my soul. Yes I had passion and an interest in my soul at an early age. Don’t believe me? Ask my momma.

I never had the guts to even attempt to be on her show. I would sit back and watch all the Favorite Things episodes and the Live Your Best Life shows from my couch wishing I was there to witness and participate in the work that was being done there. 

I call it work because lives were changed on that show. People worked through their issues in front of millions in hope of moving forward and getting through the emotional mental and sometimes physical gunk of life. I’ve been working on me so hard and for so long I think I deserve a W-2! 

I didn’t think I was worthy. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t that I thought I wasn’t worthy to be in her presence, it was more like, “Why me? I’m not that special. My story isn’t that interesting.” So I sat back for 25 seasons and never sent one letter or email to get on the show (until the final season when all I wanted was a ticket to the grand finale.)

Over the last 15 years, life has been indescribable. Not all bad, but the struggle was REAL. Failed relationships (romantic, platonic, professional and family,) financial issues, health issues and insecurities played a major role in my inability to live my best life. 

On the flip side, my career was taking off, I bought a home, I had a wonderful circle of friends and the most important person in my life, my mother was always a phone call away. Things were back and forth, up and down all over the place and bittersweet.

 It took a while but I finally got on the path to feeling “worthy.” I began to travel, I went on trips and vacations with loved ones. I cultivated meaningful and healthy relationships. But while everything seemed to be all good on the outside, I was hiding a HUGE secret. I was miserable. I was depressed. I was pissed off because I finally knew my worth yet I wasn’t living a life that was worthy of me! I know it sounds confusing, but it’s my truth.

I was so afraid of confessing my feelings because I didn’t think anyone would get it. My job is to be funny and upbeat 5 hours a day 5 days a week. Being a Debbie Downer was not an option so I put on my happy mask and cracked jokes. I ignored the aches of my heart and soldiered on with my day to day.

Dewaynia getting the coveted tickets!
Fast forward to March 2012. Oprah’s Lifeclass went on tour and I scored tickets with my sister-friend Dewaynia. You can read all about that here. When I learned about the topic “Living your life on purpose,” I was beyond excited. I knew something was off and I knew something was missing but I didn’t know how to express it or pursue it.

I want to go through and give you all a play by play of the trip, the outfit and the entire show but I know y’all have stuff to do so I’m going to get to the good.

Like my outfit?


The show was 2 hours long and for 90 minutes various people stood up and spoke on how they found the courage to let go of their pasts to pursue their dreams. I started to feel a certain kind of way. 

Why was it so easy for everyone else to pop up and tell Oprah about how they quit their jobs, let go of fear to find their purpose. Sorry I got bills, I don’t have a financial back up plan. I wanted to know how to get my happy!

So during a commercial break I looked at my friend Dewaynia and I said, “I’m not feeling this. I am not getting the answers I need.” It wasn’t that TD Jakes and the other guests weren’t effective, it was just that I needed some specifics. So while Oprah sat on stage getting her hair and makeup retouched, I stood up and said “I have a question!”

 

What the what? Why did I do that? What if I ticked off Oprah by yelling at her? I was frozen with fear and hope and the same time. As soon as the words escaped my lips, Oprah replied “You in the pretty yellow dress, we will come to you after commercial.”

Huh? That’s all it took? I’ve been waiting 25 years to talk to you and now I’m about to be on TV after standing up during commercial break? Me? One in a thousand?  Lifeclass got real. A guy with a microphone came my way, a stage hand made me step up on a wooden box (I’m kinda short) and I stood there waiting for my moment. Then this happened:


Audience Q&A: How Do You Find the Courage to Follow Your Purpose?
During a live taping in St. Louis, an audience member asks how to push past fear to find your purpose. Find out why Bishop T.D. Jakes says baby steps and resisting your fear will help you live the life you've dreamed about.

 

 Did y’all just see that? Me talking to Oprah and TD Jakes? Crying on national television and telling the world that I needed more and that I was afraid? I’ve had people ask me why I was crying and if it was because I was talking to Oprah. No, that wasn’t it. I cried when I met her at Sweetie Pie’s the day before.


These were tears of relief and hope. I wanted to share my secret and I wanted help! Just like Ricky Bobby said. “Help me Oprah Wini-frey!” Side note, if you haven't seen this video PLEASE watch Dewaynia's retelling of "The Day We Met Oprah"


 

I asked that question and I zoned out. I heard their replies but I wasn’t really capable of processing the words. I had just confessed on national television that I was afraid to pursue my dreams and my heart’s desire. Deidre “I got this” James unedited and on Front Street.

I haven’t watched this clip in its entirety until today. The truth hurts! What is wrong with me and why can’t I ask for what I want?  The one thing I took from that moment was Rev. T.D. Jakes saying “Resist your fear and your faith will get bigger. You either resist your fear or give up your destiny.”

So here we are, one year later. Did I do it? Did I resist my fears? YES I DID!

See, I learned your purpose isn’t always your paycheck. I was conflicted because I loved my job but something was missing. Who am I kidding, it wasn’t something, I knew exactly what it was!  So I applied for a volunteer position with an organization that made my heart sing. I was accepted into their program and for the next 6 months I lived a life that brought me so much joy and purpose that if I never do anything else, I would be ok because I made so many connections and I made a difference in my community. 

Yes I’m funny, but honey, don’t think I can’t run the world. I put it down and I was successful. I didn’t do it alone, my friends and family helped tremendously and I would not have made it through that time without them.

It was scary and I took many risks and I loved every second of it. It was something I did for me. It had nothing to do with my career, my friends or anything else. I took a chance and it paid off big time.  Those super close to me know the details of my journey and that’s how it should be. I resisted my fear and my faith carried me through one of the most trying and rewarding times of my life.

Now don’t think that I’m done. Nope, I’m not even close. I’m not done fighting those fears. When something or someone is important to you, you have to face your fears and deal with it. Maybe you’re afraid to pursue a hobby like dancing, or maybe you’re afraid to tell someone you love them. Whatever it is, resist that fear! It is a prison and I refuse to live that Shawshank life.

So thank you Oprah, TD Jakes and especially Dewaynia. I’m done with fear and I will live in my truth as often as I can for as long as I can. I’m fearless. I’m a fighter and I have faith and that makes me unstoppable.  When I forget it that I am all those things, I have an awesome circle of loved ones who remind me that I got this! We all have it in us, and we are WORTHY. Don’t waste any time thinking you’re not.
Until next time!



Beast Mode Part 1


Hello Dee-talers! Heads up, I'm writing this on the fly from my phone so we might have a gang of typos and I'm gonna need for you to get past that and focus on the bigger picture here ok?



You ever been sick and tired of being sick and tired? I realized I have been in a physical funk and after losing a good amount of weight and living a healthy lifestyle, I was back on Team Fluffikins.

Sipping wine, eating cookie butter, watching Series 3 of Downton Abbey like it was my job. Man I was up to no good! But who wants to work out??? Why do I have to sweat!? Pass the cookie butter and leave me be!




Then this happened...





Dang Superbowl Halftime Show. Dang Destiny's Child Reunion. Dang Beyonce's  gyrating. And Dang Kelly Rowland's ridiculously cut arms!!





Wake up call!!  I called myself learning the break it down part to End of Time and almost collapsed a lung. Not cool!

 
So fine. I will never be a member of Destiny's Child. I will never wear a python onesie in front of 100 million people, but can I get my lungs to hold enough air to get me through a song please God? Can I live!!??

Ok I'm being dramatic (again) point is its time to get off Team Fluffikins and work my way up to being a starter on Team Fly As A Mugg. I've been easing into things. A class here and there, waling and eating better but it's time to get turnt up!

So today I am attempting to kick start my efforts by doing 4 yes 4 workouts in one day.

Now listen I ain't stupid. This won't be an everyday thing, but I'm looking at it as my Get it Right Inauguration. I Deidre James hereby do solemnly swear to dedicate my time and efforts into being well, fly as a mugg!

So I'm going to keep track of every activity and hopefully I can complete all 4. No skipping ahead alright? Ok let's go!





photo by Level 5 Studio


Workout #1: All Them Mocha Lattes You Gotta Do Pilates

12:15 PM
I went to Level 5 Studios for my very 1st Pilates class.
I met my instructor who was tall blonde  beautiful and very kind. The class had 4 other Pilates Pros and I was the thickest most out of shape newbie in the bunch.

The class was challenging but I felt comfortable in the company of the other class mates. The instructor modified the moves for me, took time to correct my poses and even challenged me to do some advanced moves.
I will say at one point when we were in children's pose. I thought I was going suffocate myself with my breasteses!
At the end of the class, everyone congratulated me on not giving up and I took a bow. I have a loooong way to go before I'm anywhere close to being as good as my classmates, but I still give the experience an A!



Tips: wear light weight breathable clothing, if you're busty, lock those chesticles down and wear a crew neck shirt. No v-necks! Also make sure your feet don't look like a smashed up bag of Fritos. No shoes, no socks, so grease up those ankles!
Invest in a comfy mat. You will spend a lot of time on it and you will sweat!

Work Out #2 Show Me What You're Twerkin With

Confession, I can't dance like I used to. I mean I can dance as in I still know the moves to Janet Jackson videos and I can bust out the routine to Bell Biv Devoe's Poison but umm as far as the dances that are popular today, I'm a straight up old lady. So I googled YouTube video tutorials on some of today's moves like the Dougie, Twerkin, the REAL Harlem Shake and the Cat Daddy.




Maaaaan that was just sad. I don't think my Lord and Savior wants me to be Twerk Team Captain because I swear on my last jar of cookie butter you will never see me twerking in public. The movements, the sounds, the facial expressions. I quit this workout before I could burn a single calorie. I don't want to dance like this. Didn't break any kind of sweat, but I did break my own heart. That was just sad. I give that an F!!


Ok this post is getting long and I have to get ready for my other work outs. Do I have it in me or will I stay on team Fluffikins?

To be continued...

"O" Happy Day!

Y'all...
You know it's serious when I start with a "y'all." OK, something so major, so epic, so monumental, is happening in less than 30 days and I am about to burst with excitement and joy.


No, I'm not getting married, I'm not moving, but I will fulfill a dream that has been 25 years in the making.




I'm going to see OPRAH!!!!!!!






Her legendary talk show came to an end nearly a year ago and I thought I had missed my opportunity to see Lady O do her thing in front of a live audience.  As promised, she hasn't gone away, but she's started a new chapter on her OWN Network.


On March 26, she's filming an episode of her powerful series Lifeclass at the Peabody Opera House in St. Louis with Rev. T.D. Jakes, and I will be in the audience!


Season one of Lifeclass blew my mind. Each night, Oprah revisited the most unforgettable topics from the Oprah Winfrey Show and how those stories, and guests can serve as teachable moments to help you live your best life. 

Last week it was announced that season 2 was in the works and Oprah was taking the show on the road.Tickets were given away at random via an online lottery process and my dear friend and Lifeclassmate, Dewaynia scored a pair! I can't think of anyone I'd rather go with. We have spent countless hours in my room, with notebooks and Kleenex consuming the life lessons and applying them to our personal goals. Now we get a chance to see Professor Oprah in person and together.


So now we play the waiting game. Tickets have been booked, hotel is set. I think Dewaynia has her outfit selected!  I will keep you updated as we receive more details, but for now I hope you will set your DVRs and tune in.





Oh Baby Baby: Britney Spears Femme Fatale Tour

Last night Raleigh, NC had its face rocked off by the awesomeness of Britney Spears and her Femme Fatale Tour. 



If you know me, you know I've been down with Britney since she was a brunette in track pants doing flips at car washes in her Baby One More Time video. My love is true. I even saw that movie Crossroads opening night when it hit theaters.




When Justin Timberlake dissed her in that Cry Me A River video, I defended her. I mean c'mon did she really cheat on him or was JT trying to get some press for his debut album?




Then came the K-Fed years and that God-awful reality show Chaotic. The head shaving, crotch shots, babies, lawsuits, me and Brit-Brit have been through it and not once have a missed a tour. I will travel across state lines and skip a cell phone bill, to support my Britney habit. 

Don't get it twisted, just because I work in radio I'm never guaranteed concert tickets. I had to creep on Craigslist for last minute deals hours before the show and got a pair of tickets in the nosebleed seats and a friend willing to pay for their own ticket (shout out to Kerry!)


Eventually we made it to the concert and not only were our seats horrible, they were so high up, I would have had a hard time enjoying myself  and jamming sitting so close to Jesus in the sky. Luckily we got upgraded to lower level seats right next to the stage! 


My sweet Britney brought it so hard. 90 minutes of up tempo, sometimes cheesy, sexy, fun music. Home girl actually sang y'all! I know she's supposed to sing but let's be real, we don't love Brit for her voice, and her latest stuff if techie auto-tuned jams. But I'm not there for the vocals, I love the beats, the songs, the dancing, the spectacle of it all and I make no apologies. I know she isn't for everyone. There isn't a lot of depth there, but you know sometimes you just want to see pretty people doing pretty things in pretty pink clothes! 

Oh what you want pictures? Boom , I got ya! I caught Britney in all her glory with the camera I snuck inside the arena. Enjoy!





The set list had a great mix of her older hits and the new stuff. I was floored by her performance of "I'm A Slave 4 U." She it all the moves, and it was great seeing her re-create the 2001 hit. Yep, it's been 10 years! 


The crowd was a mix of all types of people. Gay, straight, adults, teens, and the outfits were amazing. Since cameras were illegal I couldn't get as many photos as I wanted but I hope you liked the few I have.  What was the last concert you went to? Did you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed Brit Brit? Discuss!

Until next time!
Dee

Dressing Room Project: Carrie On :)

For the last few weeks I've been obsessed with turning my junk room into a chic and stylish dressing room like Carrie Bradshaw's in Sex & the City.










Pretty kick ass right? Well, here is my closet....






A hot mess!





So now I'm dedicating the next month to transforming the junk room into a dressing room! A place where I can try on my clothes, apply make up, display my accessories and listen to music without disturbing up my resting place.

One of the benefits of being single and a homeowner, (yep, contrary to what society wants you to believe, they do exist!) I have extra room and total say-so on what those rooms will be used for. I have a den, a guest room, home office and now I'll have my very own dressing room. Oh you fancy huh? :)

It won't be easy but I'm already making progress. Here are some before shots.

Old IKEA couch

 Entertainment center with TV/DVR..I really want to keep the DVR and TV but the unit isn't doing much for the room....
 More junk...pilates machine and clothes baskets. I need to utilize that wire storage unit. Right now it just has socks and mittens in it.
 Sweaters, and junk all over the place (and yes I'm watching the Hangover)


So there it is, my inspiration and my current situation. I'm going to chronicle the process here on Dee-tales. I know it won't be easy but I'm determined to make this room work and for under $200.  I'll be back tomorrow with more updates. Wish me luck!

















Keep Breathing

Still Breathing by Brianna Martray
To say the last month has been a difficult one would be a gross understatement. I’ve had to deal with some pretty hardcore issues over the last few weeks. Good, bad, ugly and downright debilitating issues that have kept me from posting as often as I want to.

Professionally, things couldn’t be better. I’m lying, having a show syndicated in major markets would be better, but that’s a discussion for another time. What I know for sure is day after day we have fantastic shows. I know better than to wear mascara in the morning because most likely I will stain my face from crying and laughing. The energy is there, the chemistry is on point, and I am so proud of the work we’ve been producing on air.

Socially, I’m like the Energizer Bunny. My calendar and datebook are filled and I’m pursing new interests, enjoying the people I’m meeting, the company I keep, and the laughter and joy they bring me. 

The one thing I haven’t been so vocal about is my physical alignments and the way they changed me. A few posts ago I wrote a light hearted entry on being sick and staying at home resting. I down played my sickness because I didn’t want to come off as whiny and exaggerated. Truth be told I was at the most vulnerable and frightened place I’d ever been. I was literally breathless. Air struggled to get in and it was excruciating to breathe out. Our most basic human function, the thing we do in our sleep and without thought was the one thing I wasn’t able to do without experiencing severe pain and discomfort. 

This really did a number on me. I didn’t know why I was ill, I didn’t know how to get better. Doctors poked and prodded me for days and still weren’t able to give me the answers I needed. They took my blood, x-rayed my chest, medicated me, and still I wasn’t able to breathe normally. I don’t know if I will ever be able to fully express how helpless it made me feel. 

Then the paranoia set in. I couldn’t sleep from fear of not being able to breathe. I was scared that everything around me was making me sick. My house, my clothes, my friends, I suspected everything. My medications had side effects that altered my mood, personality and energy level. I felt trapped, no paralyzed from the neck down. My brain was functioning but my lungs and body were not.

I am much better now and although I’m active again, I diligently take time each day to rest and allow my lungs to heal. I’m back to doing the things that brought me joy until the sickness took them away. Things like singing, working out, even laughing. Can you believe I couldn’t laugh without enduring pain? 

I’m ashamed to admit that I let the sickness get the best of me. It was only for a short time, but it happened. For a brief moment I gave up and even thought about how much easier it would be to just let go and disappear. No more pain, no infection, no sickness. The battle was too much for me, or so I thought. 

I’m officially closing that chapter of my life. I’m not going to dwell on that pain, that fear, and that feeling of helplessness. I am better. I won. I’m breathing. 

Some of you have shared that you are going through your own “sickness” right now. Something is blocking you from being your authentic self, something is paralyzing you or taking your breath away, zapping your energy and will to move forward. Push past it, move on, you deserve better, you are better, you will get better and you’ll come out of it so much stronger. I promise the sickness will leave. And if it won’t go, breathe, gather and fight like hell to find your way to your own healing. 

Now excuse me while I go outside, give thanks, and  breathe in some fresh air. I so deserve it.

Until next time, 
Deidre 


I'm baaaaack!

Hey, ya!


Not much has been going on with me since my last post. I've been focusing on getting better, watching tons of TV, and listening to new music.


My meds had me tripping big time and my dreams were ridiculous. I had one dream that had me living with Beyonce and Jay-Z and they were out of toilet paper and I was too embarrassed to tell Jigga man I needed some Charmin so I just sat on the toilet until I woke up.  I know dream sharing is only interesting for the dreamer so I will just leave it at that for now.






But seriously, being sick sucked big time. My mom deserves a medal for putting up with this all week....
Thank you mom I love you the most you duck!




I'm really enjoying the new Kings of Leon album Come Around Sundown. If you're expecting this album to be a repeat of Only By Night, you need not purchase Sundown. Do yourself a favor and grab Aha Heartbreak, and Because of the Times. The latest album is a throwback to Youth and Young Manhood which features some of my favorite KOL songs, Molly's Chambers and Trani.


The highlights from Sundown include Birthday, Radioactive, Celebration, Pony Up, and The End.


 I was lucky enough to see KOL live last month and the show was amazing! Here are some pics and a video  from the show taken by my buddy Alicia.










I loved it when the crowd sang along to Use Somebody








Is anyone watching Project Runway? My favorite designer Michael Costello was sent home after a triumphing over a gang of bully designers who felt he wasn't worthy of being there. I loved Micheal's personality from the start, and he's truly this season's underdog. Seriously the guy is talented and charming.






For some reason, PR is letting 10 designers show at fashion week, not the top 3 as it has been in the past. Here is a sneak peek at some of Michael's designs from the finale.















Fierceness!  I'm hoping that blue feathered skirt comes in a size bigger than an extra medium because I would so buy one. I'm trying to get an interview with him, so if you have any questions please send them my way.


So I have one more doctor's visit with the pulmonary specialist to  make sure I'm all healed and healthy, then I'm heading to DC for Jon Stewart's Rally To Restore Sanity. I can't wait to catch up with some old friends and some of the people who lived with me during the 2008 presidential campaign, happy times!!


The other night I met up with some friends to make signs for the rally. I wasn't able to get pics of the end result but we had a blast making them, it was a two day process, but I'll be sure to grab some this weekend!


Please forgive me for not updating sooner! I promise now that I'm better I will post more.




Until next time,
Deidre



















Beautiful B.B.





Let's face it, I have some pretty awesome friends. Seriously, my friends rock my face off. One of my newest friends is Brie Reeder. Not only is she drop dead gorgeous, she's also as sweet as can be. Brie is an accomplished esthetician, make up artist, model, and has even done some film work.


I met Brie and her husband Michael a few months ago at an event for a non-profit and we hit it off instantly. After a few exchanges via texts, and Facebook, we finally got together at their home where Brie did my make up for my True Blood event last month.





Brie used an air brush technique on my skin that made my foundation last all day, and it looked so even and smooth! It didn't even feel like I had make up on my face. 
















Here is the completed look (excuse the hair)








I am a little conservative when it comes to my make up. I wanted a natural look, and I got exactly what I wanted. Smooth, polished, and classy.








Here are some other examples of her work










Here is a make up tutorial she's posted for Iman Cosmetic's Leather and contest, yep she uses all kinds of make up, for all skin tones :)





For more info on my friend Brie, please check out her site Makeup By B.B., and follow her on TwitterFacebook! She's always willing to give tips and reviews of the best products out there. 



















Homecoming, Homies, and the Holy Ghost Tent Revival

I had an amazing weekend with some of my favorite people! Friday night I met up with my friends Kerry and Rebecca for dinner and cheesecake from Cheesecakes by Alex, hands down the BEST cheesecake you'll ever put in your mouth! We also had dinner downtown at the Mellow Mushroom then met up with my other friends Brie and Michael. The plan was to see Holy Ghost Tent Revival perform at Lyndon Street Artworks.

Holy Ghost Tent Revival - Needing You from Will & Friends on Vimeo.


The band was supposed to go on at 11 but we spent most of the night in the parking lot meeting interesting characters, telling off-color jokes, and drinking beer. We never made it inside because, well I'm old...and I had to go to work the next morning






 This is me bright eyed and ready for work after a few hours rest! I headed out to Everybody's Day Festival in Thomasville, NC. I was too busy working and meeting listeners to take any good pics, but I had a great time and enjoyed a yummy funnel cake!



When I got home, I was all set to sleep and watch my TV shows but I got a text from my line sister Dewaynia who was in town for homecoming with her new boyfriend. They were all hanging out downtown at a social hosted at a local bar Churchill's so I decided I'd go hang out for a couple hours. I ran into classmates and friends I hadn't seen in years, like this dynamic diva, my friend Jackie,






I also ran into my friend Dawn :)
We sat outside, laughing and joking so long, we didn't even realize everyone else was gone. This is what the club looked like when the 4 of us finally left.




We headed over to Fincastle's for fried pickles, burgers, dogs, and even more laughs.

 (photo courtesy of Fincastle's)

One the way to our cars we found some chalk,  an open space on a wall went all preschool on it for the next few minutes










We finally made it back to my place, got dressed for the All Black (attire) Party and headed out. I need to apologize to my hairdresser for going out with my head looking like this. I wasn't planning on going to the party, and I don't want anyone thinking this do' was done by her....

I found this dress at Forever 21 for 17.80 The necklace was from NY and Company for $15.00




Here is a pic of me and my line sister Camilla at the bar isn't she lovely!!

We had so much fun together, dancing all night, laughing and catching up. I can't wait to see everyone again, hopefully we won't have to wait another year :)

Hope you had a great weekend too!


Glee at Dee's

So I totally dropped the ball on my fall TV preview for the week.  I really wanted to guide you all through the best and worst shows of the season, but I wasn't able to give you an in depth guide to Tuesday's line-up because I was consumed with preparing to celebrate the only show that really matters to me, GLEE!!



 

Yep, I totally gleeked out and hosted a premiere party for Glee's 2nd season, and boy did we have a great time. Some of us had too much fun thanks to my neighbor Scarlett's homemade pear sangrias.



We started right at 7 with all kinds of yummy foods, and watching our favorite scenes from season 1. We also played charades, acting out song titles from songs performed on the show.


One Gleek dominated the competition, winning dang near every round of charades. Rebecca owned the night, won the the iTunes gift card and even sang for the crowd.



Good times right? I learned several things that night, first I'm a very lucky girl to have such great friends! To have so many people come out on a weeknight to watch TV with little ol' me, really made me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. I also realized I need to take a photography class! My shots were so off and I didn't get as many pictures as I could have because my camera kept stalling. I also learned anytime someone offers you a drink from a mason jar, you will wake up the next morning with blurred vision and hair on your chest.

I know it would be difficult to host a party like this each week but I'm sure we'll do it again soon. Now I need to get my head right for the season premiere of Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice!

Until next time,
Deidre


Bacon, Berry, and Bad Dreams

You ever have one of those nights where no matter what you do, your mind just won't allow you to get any rest? Your dreams are so realistic and unpleasant that even after you wake up it takes a while before the ugly thoughts are completely out of your system? I went through that last night. I woke up terrified and distraught, but I refuse to let it define my day, so I jumped out of bed, said a prayer for peace and began to re-build my day.

For me, music is the best medicine, it is the one thing I can count on to get me out of my funk and to get on with my day. Apolpgies to my neighbors if you were bothered by my mini concert this morning which started with a little Kid Cudi's Up Up & Away.


 


My mom always says, if you have a bad dream don't speak of it until you've had some food. Now I have no idea where she got that idea  but as long as I stay black (which is forever) I will trust my mom and do what she says. So after I jammed to Cudi, I took the kitchen to whip up some breakfast.

I don't usually get a chance to enjoy a nice sit down meal in the morning because we go on the air at the butt crack of dawn. I'm lucky if I get a granola bar and banana in the morning, so today I made some pancakes and bacon with a side of yummy fruit. 



To continue my feel-good morning, I sat down with the latest issue of Vogue and  drooled over the beautiful clothes and read the article on Halle Berry (FIMH).


I've always been a fan of  Halle Berry's. She has been through so much (most of it publicly) and is a testament to the fact that  fame, fortune, and beauty doesn't = happiness. Living your life in the media isn't always easy especially when your heartbreaks are so frequent and devastating. This is what she had to say about giving her first interview in three years.

"I was burned-out with having other people tell the story about me that they wanted to tell. I told my publicist, 'I'm not going to talk anymore. I'm just going to live my life and be who I am.'"


I can't blame her, but I am so excited to see she's opening up again. I needed my Berry fix!


So now that I've gotten that horrible dream out of my system, bacon in my belly, and Berry on my brain, I'm looking forward to a beautiful day living in light and directing my love and energy to all things good. 

Until next time!
Deidre















True Blood Finale Party



I still can’t believe I got to be a part of the official HBO True Blood season finale party here in North Carolina! It was one of the most exhausting days of my life but I had so much fun with all of our listeners and True Blood fanatics.

The day started with the pre-show outside the Carolina Theatre. We had signs, karaoke, a dance off and a costume contest for tickets to the invite only event.




Special thanks to Kristen Bauer Van Straten who plays vampire and Fangtasia owner Pam, the very handsome Kevin Alejandro who plays LaFayette's boyfriend Jesus, and Todd Lowe who plays Terry Bellefleur. They showed up and participated in a Q&A with the audience. Around 8:45 we all took our seats, munched on popcorn (I drank a lot of wine) and we watched the True Blood finale on the big screen.

Thanks to Brie Reeder who did my make-up for the event, Jennifer Westmoreland who took most of these photos, and my friends at HBO and Time Warner Cable for allowing me to host the pre-show. 

Are you a fan of True Blood? What were your thoughts on the finale?

Until next time,
Deidre


Go Your Own Way

Long time no blog huh? Well, it has been a busy week for me and I have neglected my blog for far too long! What has it been, like 3 days? Well I am back with a Do It Yo’self project that should take most people about an hour to complete. However I am special and it took me a heck of a lot longer because I was distracted by the Lifetime Movie Network, wine, and a few miscalculations.

Little known fact, I was the art teacher for an after-school program when I was in college. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Helping kids explore their creativity was such a beautiful thing to witness. They taught me that you don’t have to be skilled in sketching or watercolors to make your very own masterpiece. All it takes is the willingness to allow yourself the freedom to experiment with different materials, and to not be too hard on yourself if it doesn’t turn out the way you envisioned it.

This project was very personal to me. It combines my love of music, as well as some personal issues I’ve been struggling with over the last few months. As I write this I am struggling with just how in depth I should be about what drove me to make these choices, because it was very complex and I know you love me, but who wants to read this all night?

For as long as I can remember I’ve been a fan of Fleetwood Mac. It probably has a lot to do with my mother who exposed me to all types of music at a young age. I remember being a little girl spinning around in my living room while singing along with Stevie Nicks (especially her solo hit Stand Back).

Their 1977 album Rumors is probably the album that has influenced me the most. Every song on that record speaks to me on levels I didn’t quite understand when I was younger but now, as an adult it is crystal clear to me why I fell in love with these songs and lyrics.  Songs like Landslide, Songbird, and Don't Stop. Second Hand News and Never Going Back Again break my heart every time I listen to them.

Rumors was my first love. It taught me everything I needed to know about relationships, with your friends, family, and loved ones when they’re good, and especially when they go bad.

One day I was listening to “Go Your Own Way” and I don’t know if I can explain it to you, but I was moved to express myself through those lyrics, and I didn’t know how. These words stood out to me: 

Loving you isn’t the right thing to do 
How can I ever change things that I feel?
If I could baby I’d give you my world 
How can I, when you won’t take it from me? 

At the moment I was living those lyrics. If you’ve ever been in a place where you felt like no matter what you did, the object of your affection wasn’t open to or willing to allow you access into their world, then you know how I felt listening to this song. If there is someone standing between you and what you really want, in life and all it would take for you to achieve your goal is for them to listen to you and let you do your thing, you know how I felt listening to this song. If you’ve ever tried over and over again to tell a dear friend that their reckless behavior, and poor decision making was only making their life more complicated than it needed to be, guess what? You know, how I felt, listening to this song. 

You can go your own way 
You can call it another lonely day


I needed a way to tell this to a few people in my life, but how? I can’t sing or play an instrument like Lindsay Buckingham. I for damn sure didn’t have the courage to say it to these people who were blocking me from my happiness at the time, especially when some of us weren’t even on speaking terms.

So I thought of another way to express myself through these lyrics. I chose a way that would remind me each and every day that even though I want to have a certain type of relationship with some of my friends, family members and associates, I am not in control of what they do or how they see me, so I made this.


I took a map and detailed the places I’ve been, where I want to go, and the people who have helped or hindered me in the process. 

All it took was a map, alphabet stickers from a craft store and a frame. Easy right?

At first I was all worried about the alignment, and spacing, of the words and letters. Then I realized, like real life and relationships, it is far from perfect. Nothing is ever aligned exactly the way we want them to be when it comes to the people we care about. So instead of letting the ruler guide me, I went my own way.


Thanks to my good friend Zach for helping me find my way and the courage to do so.

Can You Hear Me Now?

Hi! I'm Deidre and welcome to my blog! I've been wanting to do this for so long and I finally got the courage to share my thoughts via the web. I have so much to talk about, so many things I want to share, I don't even know where to begin. Basically I want to be heard and I want to listen and learn from you guys. I'd love for this to be a place for me to share my world and get some things off my chest. That has been a running theme in my life.

I pledged Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority Incorporated in the fall of 2001. I earned the line name “Ace VENTura” because throughout my process I’d often start conversations by saying “Umm I need to vent..” Working in such a large group with my sisters and trying to get things accomplished was difficult because everyone wanted to be heard. So I’d bite my tongue for as long as I could, my head would begin to throb, my chest got tight, and when I couldn’t take it anymore, I’d stand up and say those words “Umm I need to vent” and everyone knew it was going to be a very long night. Everything I’d held onto was about to be unloaded. But hey we all want to be heard right?

I guess I still felt the need to be heard because since 2003, I’ve been the co-host of a morning radio show geared towards men. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job but I’m the only woman on a show with 4 guys. It’s like The View with man meat and I’m the odd-chick out,the Elizabeth Hasselbeck of my show. You know how Whoopi, Joy, Sherri, and Barbra Walters lean to the left politically and Lizzy is the Lone Republican Ranger? Well on my show I’m very vocal about my support of President Obama, gay marriage, and most liberal topics. Our audience leans toward the right and is male oriented so yeah sometimes I struggle to get my point across. I enjoy and encourage the healthy dialogue on our program with my co-hosts and listeners but sometimes even after talking to thousands of people for 5 hours each day,I still need to vent. That is why I started this blog.

I’m also going through a major physical transformation. I packed on a ton of pounds (I stopped counting around 100,) as a result of poor choices, health issues, and some wicked steroids and hormones I took to “get better.” Let me tell you it SUCKED ass and I wanted it gone. That rapid and massive weight gain did a number on my body and health so I had weight loss surgery (lap-band,) because my doctors agreed carrying all that weight on a small frame was doing even more damage than my prior health issues. See:


Since I try to avoid cameras at all times, I don't really have a full body "after" shot but I took this photo 3 months ago:


So all is good right? Dee got a quick fix and the weight is just gonna melt off in no time and she will finally get her sexy back? Hell to the no. Anyone who tells you surgery is an easy out is grossly uninformed and needs to shut the hell up. It is more like a tool to kick start your lifestyle change. It worked for me I knocked off about 30lbs in no time. After that initial drop the hard work begins. You have to worry about portion control, working out, making sure you’re getting all the nutrients you need, and blah blah blah. This shit requires commitment. But I don’t want to get into all of that during our first encounter. If you stick around you’ll hear all about my process, and the ups and downs of my weight loss. For now I can tell you I’ve lost 80lbs in 8 months and I would love to lose about 50 more.

I’m also an HGTV ho’. Seriously, I’d sell body to get on Design on a Dime, real talk. I have a love jones for Vern Yip. I’ve been stalking him since his Trading Spaces days. He completes me. I even got to meet him once see!



Don’t we look good together? I was crushed when I learned we could never be. He kissed a boy and he liked it. Liked it so much they adopted a kid together. If he’d called me I would have been honored to carry his little Yip in my womb in exchange for a bathroom makeover. Ok that sounds creepy, of course I wouldn’t do that. I’m lying I’d totally get knocked up by Vern to get a whirlpool tub!

See here I go just yammering and going on, getting off track! Let me wrap up this intro. So yea my name is Deidre, I’m a dj, trying to lose weight, get my house together, find love and happiness, and while I’m at it, I’d like to end world hunger. Welcome to my blog! I hope you come back soon! *Insert pageant wave*